have you ever

just felt so worn out?

from trying to keep things together.

then them finally seeming right again

then all of a sudden its like you have to be pulling for it to be right again

today wouldve been a special day.

i just dont see why things cant be normal again

at least between me and you

i know you cant have certain people knowing

and i know things or reationships with some people close to you may be bad right now

and things might be hell

but why can me and you make that commitment again?

just between us. i dont if no one knows.

the thing is, i wanna know it.

blah "/

the the dead said...

"i need a miracle everyday.. some kind of miracle"

risen from the dead

oh my my how i have been neglecting my sweet blog. I hope it can forgive me

well holy fucking shit.

where to start?

its been so long

well i got my GED

moved to raonoke....

then moved back

looking for a place of my own in the 434 now.

have an AMAZING girlfriend, kacie :)

fucked up alot in the past three months.

but now shit is RIGHT where it should be

got rid of some people in my life

letting some better, new people in

my lifestyle has changed a little

i spend most of my time with my girlfriend

actually, most all of my time.

we are happy. she is awesome

summer has been awesome so far

i cant wait to spend all my days with my favorite girl

Ps i really miss all my theatre friends

my best friend since i was 10 is now graduating high school, wow.

what the fux. haha

Things are going very well.

i'll catch up more later.

now, off to read The Bermudez Triangle some more :)

night folks!

well holy fuck..

its been the longest time since i've gotten on here and wrote anything.

im trying to think of alll the things that have happened since the last time.

well, for starters i have permanently removed myself from the high school education process.

and should be taking my final GED test next week in roanoke.

spring break 10, aka BEACH 10 was the best fucking time ever.

a one day trip with no showers, toothbrushes, phones, permission and bullshit and lots of beer.

hell fucking yes to the six people who came with us.

(if i could remember every funny thing or put into words how grossly happy this trip made me, then i would, but i can't. )

it was great

from there i found myself far too happy, and at the lake with some great people for the following 3 days.

all i can really do is smile. :)))

ahhhhhhh.

and i like......

but anyways, back to reality now.

i have class in two hours so i shall go now.

tata(s)

not a goddamn thing

is making any sense to me right now.

need to find my inner peace.

goodnight

iko iko

eyeay.

havent written on here in a minute. Pretty up there listening to the beatles, so you know its good :)

the past weeek has been fucking guud.

reallly fuking guud.

thats really al i can say.

for once, i really enjoyed a show.

(night accredited to casey, josh e, sean, josh m, kyle, corey, ryan, and the bands )

I think into everything to much when i'm h.....

i have too many thoughts

time for rest, ( i promise ill have good stories to tell next time ) . night.

im pretty goddamn

annoyed because i keep being grouped by my sexuality.

and people always asking about it

"oh would you ever date a guy again" "you used to like guys"

all of you go od and die, for real.

awesome night - btw.

happpy 18th birthday to the man whos been my friend since we were ten.

j how :)

much love folks.

same sluts, different day

2:24 am and i just woke up, after going to bed at 9. cant go back to sleep, being infected with a chest cold and its taking over my entire being with its convolutions of the lung-age. ya know?

i have a fucking wonderful life, like.. really.

i do.

i'm so happy

and check it out, special words for kyle greene ( since i know he just loooooves creepin my blog, ahhah) but really, love this man already, he seems so wonderful and he has really turned a new leaf for a family member who i really adore, hope he's in my life for a god while, he's a great dude for sure. love you mister kyle :)

and if y'all havent already seen this... then you need to watch it.. then maybe... touch yourself. :) goodnight.

GOOOOO GOOOOO FUH GA GA GA AGA GA AGA GA

well hello

so it seems i have turned a new leaf in my life.

i'm off probation now, a new woman.

i feel an entirety of weight lifted from me. i feel so free again.

that ol' mary is back ! :)

you know, you know.

I still have the best job ever,

had the best weekend ever. ( all my weekends are always the best)

and tomorrow i am getting my hair cut short to my collar bone, goodbye long locks.

i feel like it time for alot of change, including hair.

i have also removed any and every insignificant person from my life.

(shout out time)

let me take a moment to say very quickly ashley ott is my very best friend, and the best one i have /ever had.

thanks for never changed. i love you forever.

i also love.. casey.

oh and my love interest, who is to remain completely hush hush, is the best cuddle buddy ever.

and im stoked for my dad and my former step mom jackie getting back together after being married from the time i was 1-6.

they're now living in roanoke and ill be joining them after this year is up

guess that makes me and dabney step sisters again ( once removed)

haha oh god, how i love this crazy, drunk, big silly dysfunctional family.

have a splendid night, folks. :)

i really love blogging

its like a diary entry but that people can see and not so personal. i think thats why i like it.. it's not so serious. and shit just isnt serious sometimes.

i have court tomorrow.

off probation? i hope so. i more than likely will be

but theres always that chance that the judge will not agree

oh have i said that the past two weeks have been so stressful? Well they have been

hopefully after tomorrow itll all be over with maybe im so stressed because i know in my subconcious mind how much i dont want to be in a court room ever again,

i dont know.

aah.. this weekend will be good :)

working all dat saturday making 50 +. tanning, being with kacieeee, and im sure other great things, just like everyweekend.

i love sleeeeeping. GOODNIGHT.