not a goddamn thing

is making any sense to me right now.

need to find my inner peace.

goodnight

iko iko

eyeay.

havent written on here in a minute. Pretty up there listening to the beatles, so you know its good :)

the past weeek has been fucking guud.

reallly fuking guud.

thats really al i can say.

for once, i really enjoyed a show.

(night accredited to casey, josh e, sean, josh m, kyle, corey, ryan, and the bands )

I think into everything to much when i'm h.....

i have too many thoughts

time for rest, ( i promise ill have good stories to tell next time ) . night.

im pretty goddamn

annoyed because i keep being grouped by my sexuality.

and people always asking about it

"oh would you ever date a guy again" "you used to like guys"

all of you go od and die, for real.

awesome night - btw.

happpy 18th birthday to the man whos been my friend since we were ten.

j how :)

much love folks.

same sluts, different day

2:24 am and i just woke up, after going to bed at 9. cant go back to sleep, being infected with a chest cold and its taking over my entire being with its convolutions of the lung-age. ya know?

i have a fucking wonderful life, like.. really.

i do.

i'm so happy

and check it out, special words for kyle greene ( since i know he just loooooves creepin my blog, ahhah) but really, love this man already, he seems so wonderful and he has really turned a new leaf for a family member who i really adore, hope he's in my life for a god while, he's a great dude for sure. love you mister kyle :)

and if y'all havent already seen this... then you need to watch it.. then maybe... touch yourself. :) goodnight.

GOOOOO GOOOOO FUH GA GA GA AGA GA AGA GA

well hello

so it seems i have turned a new leaf in my life.

i'm off probation now, a new woman.

i feel an entirety of weight lifted from me. i feel so free again.

that ol' mary is back ! :)

you know, you know.

I still have the best job ever,

had the best weekend ever. ( all my weekends are always the best)

and tomorrow i am getting my hair cut short to my collar bone, goodbye long locks.

i feel like it time for alot of change, including hair.

i have also removed any and every insignificant person from my life.

(shout out time)

let me take a moment to say very quickly ashley ott is my very best friend, and the best one i have /ever had.

thanks for never changed. i love you forever.

i also love.. casey.

oh and my love interest, who is to remain completely hush hush, is the best cuddle buddy ever.

and im stoked for my dad and my former step mom jackie getting back together after being married from the time i was 1-6.

they're now living in roanoke and ill be joining them after this year is up

guess that makes me and dabney step sisters again ( once removed)

haha oh god, how i love this crazy, drunk, big silly dysfunctional family.

have a splendid night, folks. :)

i really love blogging

its like a diary entry but that people can see and not so personal. i think thats why i like it.. it's not so serious. and shit just isnt serious sometimes.

i have court tomorrow.

off probation? i hope so. i more than likely will be

but theres always that chance that the judge will not agree

oh have i said that the past two weeks have been so stressful? Well they have been

hopefully after tomorrow itll all be over with maybe im so stressed because i know in my subconcious mind how much i dont want to be in a court room ever again,

i dont know.

aah.. this weekend will be good :)

working all dat saturday making 50 +. tanning, being with kacieeee, and im sure other great things, just like everyweekend.

i love sleeeeeping. GOODNIGHT.

and you were runnin away, away from everything

and i stayed behind so you'd miss me.

- jessica lea mayfield.

(download and enjoy.)

tonight was a great night. had dinner at ashleys, cleaned a bunch of her stuff. cleaned out her roon and we cleaned mine too. i have a date for prom now! ahah.

i am so stoked ashleys parents like me now.. ( i think) im pretty sure they do. i love her family.. they're so supportive and down to earth.

WE BURNED ALL OF ALEX'S SHIT :) hahahaha

so fun. burning exes shit and whatnot

goodbye love notes, shirts, flowers, rings, poster.

HAAAAAAAAA

then we sat by the lake and just looked at the water and the geese and ducks and fed the fish, god i cant wait for summer.

oh and i am crushing hard...on.... :)

(wtf?)

goodnight.

for readers..

may i suggest strongly that you read this book. or watch the movie.

maybe im biased because i have a like situation with family and im partial to the part dakota fanning plays in the movie as "lily owens" but for anyone who loves a tearjerker, read/watch.

Im having an emotionally draining night.

seems like this whole week has been just that.

goooodnight

bro hood

is a beautiful thing, ya'll. ( gonna smak em if they gettin' too drunk, drunk) haha.

Tonight with sean & josh was freaking awesome. being on the mountian, being at mcdonalds, ihop, that one basement.. everywhere. i love my bros. haha. we on dat LOKO. ( ya'll know)

HI. today was a good, good friday. for once i didnt blow all my money ( pretty awesome ).

tomorrow will be wonderful too im sure.

my letter i recieved today made my day, as it always does twice a week..

im so tired. but i thought i'd give a shout on how gooood my night was, accedited to josh elder & sean davis, for being the best bros ever. ~ love yall.

im going to be really trendy now and tell ya'll that im gonna go text til i fall asleep

(no lies ahha )

ps- liza davis, chillll time soooon.

night :)

RAAA RAAA

ga ga gaa. im gonna fuck her and marry her forever. i love gaga.

so i guess i am a real human afterall, i cried today. The amount of stress i've been feeling lately is unbelievable. No prom date, but pom dress is bought, what courts gonna be like next tuesday, school, how im pssibly gonna convince my grandparents to let me get that GED, i miss juicy, most of my friends really suck, everyone seems to be annoying me lately, i feel weird, i have a crush? maybe. i miss juicy, i am frustrated with the same old daily bullshit. ANYWAY.

oh a good noteeeee.

hopefully i get off probation tuesday. eden gets out friday :) cant wait to chill with her. i still ( and always will) LOVE my job. its what i want to do forever and ever. i know.

i miss ashley and hope she feels better.

- rip caroline mcpeters.

tomorrow is friday, ya'll know :)

kacie needs to come back in town, SOON.

or i need to go to richmond soon.

school still fucking sucks.

dinner tonight was nice with kyle, julie, lauren, gabe, and gloria.

Wish me luck on finding a cute, fun prom date. ( as if )

ehhhhhhhhhhh. i love blogging. and just saying whatever is on my mind.

its like blogger listens while others dont.

i love you, bloggie. haaaa

time for law and order re runs and time to finally get off my feet and rest (workaholic)

oh, and i looooveeeee makin' my $$$$$$$.

baybe is loadin up stacks.

:)

hehehehe. gooodnight moon, goodnight spoon.

a special shout out

to someone who i love dearly and miss.

cant wait til the day we can chill again.

ima always keep touch.

much love to this man.

some are students, but some are explorers.

today, as everyday is, has been a waste from 8:20- 3:05. Some of you may sit there. work diligently on your bullshit school work because you want to make your parents proud and you want to be something that requires a lot of money income, but not something you love. Others like myself are forced to go to school, go there and sleep, eat and look for your one friend in the hallway and don't make petty bullshit conversation with those whom you dont even like. School is a way of the government saying "ok, spread your ass cheeks and were going to put a never ending dildo alllllllllllll the way up your ass. and you have to be completely silent. " its bullshit. I want to see the world, i want to be free of this shit. I need to be out there experiencing real life, and developing real skills, and ones that a teacher just couldnt teach, because that would never be socially excepted for a teacher, a "mentor", to tell you the cold hard ugly truth. Oh no, the big scary unknown. Call it what you may, low life, bum, piece of shit, unmotivated, whatever. I want to really live though, and be out of school.

now.

feed your head.

Oh, today.

well hello, this is the first blog entry i've ever done? Goodbye blogger virginity. The day has only been so so, work was good. I love making money and knowing im responsible for it. Not that it was just given to me. That i earned it, and i used to not feel like this. I'm pretty goddamn annoyed with almost every person in my life right now, and maybe im going to start my period soon and thats why i'm so irritable, but fuck it. These ass holes are annoying me. I have days where i really cant stand the majority of people and others when i love everyone ( we women tend to be like that sometimes). Being in boxers and a big, comfy tee is the only thing i like right now and i look forward to crawling in bed very shortly and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeping. OH SHIT. and the most important thing to look forward to.. Getting off probation next tuesday (3-9-10)

Oh, my heart. But since in in such a pessimistic mood, i think i'll go wash my face now and meditate, but before i go, let me say i love my job, alot. And my puppy maggie, who im going to go cuddle with right now.

taaaaataaaaaaaaaaa